It's only with the HEART one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eyes.
真正重要的东西是肉眼无法看见的,只有用心灵才能看清事物的本质。
~Le Petit Prince, novel by Antoine de Saint Exupery~

Sunday, December 2, 2012

我们的故事

人家常说,时间会冲淡一切。这是真的吗?但,那一晚,还是如此清晰。它是一场恶梦,会在深夜里把我惊醒,让我留了一身冷汗,不自禁地掉泪。因为,那一晚,我差一点就失去你了。

踏进病房时,我愣住了。眼前的一切。。。不,这不该是我们的见面方式!看着你身上插满了针管输血管,套着氧气罩,面无血色,还虚弱地喘着每一口气。。。我走向前,握起你那冰冷颤抖着的手,忍住心痛,轻声地叫你一声 “妈咪”。你稍微睁开眼睛,看见我,是惊讶,是激动。我想当时的你,非常挂念着我,等我回来,陪在你身边,可是没想到我真的回来了。当时,我只懂得要一直揉搓你的手,抚摸你的头,希望给你温暖,减轻你的痛。

你喘着气跟我说了很多话。那一番话,我牢牢记在心里,“你知道的,妈咪最疼,最爱的就是你。你一向来都很乖,很董事,不让我担心你。如果我真的不在了,我会把我所有的钱留给你读书,你要好好地读,以后要救像我这样的病人,帮助其他人。找一个真正爱你的人,嫁给他。我会在上面看着你的。

我和你隔着氧气罩里的一寸空气。就这一寸空气,足以让我和你感受到生离死别的痛!你想亲吻我,我却只能把脸颊靠在你的氧气罩上,让你不断向我脸颊吐气。那一刻,脸颊上有你一阵又一阵吐气的温度时,我哭了。你比我想象中的,还要爱我!
 
 
那一晚的后天就是我准备要参加的圣诞节表演了。看着你躺在病床与病魔对抗,我犹豫。没错,我会不舍得排练已久的表演。但是,我更舍不得你。我想为你自私一点,不顾一切,一次就好。你知道我放弃表演后,对我很失望,要我离开你,去完成那项演出。最后,我还被你那什么‘大爱’的精神说服了。你知道吗,表演的那些天,我是多么努力地压抑着自己的情绪,笑着表演,娱乐观众。因为,这是你对我的期望,我坚强实现它!

你也很坚强,很勇敢,独自战胜了病魔。你一定也在坚强实现我对你的期望吧!谢谢你,妈咪!为了我,你还是坚强活下来。

既然我是你人生的希望,你就是我奋斗的目标。别担心,我会继续努力,也会好好珍惜未来可以和你在一起的日子。妈咪,你等我吧!等我戴上四方帽,让你帮我披上大学毕业袍的那一天。。。

我坚信,我们的故事,一定会继续下去!
 

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这是我们的故事    曾经紧靠也曾经分离
那些已经缺席的剧情 错过了就让它过去
 

虽然我们曾迷失    依然重复上演着甜蜜
已经没有余力说放弃 紧握着就不要再失去

「每一个人生都是一个故事,我们就是故事里的主角。」



Monday, June 25, 2012

I'm here, the Lion City!

All this while, I experienced a lot of things especially the unexpected ones. Fated.

Now, I'm no longer in hometown already. Kota Tinggi, I miss you! Right here, I'm in a kingdom full of tall buildings, branded markets, monetary people etc -- the Lion City, Singapore. Well, it sounds abit of regretting to come here all the ways. Actually, not really. It's just the reality that I can do nothing for.

Since after realising my country doesn't seem to appreciate my presence, I don't hope anything else from her. It's really weird whereby I was disappointed when she rejected my preferred choices, but at the same time I was delighted when the other one offered me the 1st choice I hope for. In such a circumstances, well, I struggled in and out. Should I stay back to show my loyalty? Should I leave to pursue my dream somewhere else? Finally, I decided to leave. Leaving for a place appreciating my talents. allowing me to fulfill my dreams and proving my strength to the one who rejected me before. Perhaps, the Universe is telling me that it was not good enough and did not match my dream. It is also telling me that it has something BETTER and more worthy of  me.

Coming to Lion City, I get to start a whole new life. Of course, life is not gonna be easy from this point on, but you will be surprised by the changes it brings upon you.  Promises to myself : take up the challenges, overcome the obstacles and be the BEST of myself. Never compare myself with the others. I just have to compete with myself in such a competitive environment. It's only when I can win over myself, I win the others too. To me, the term of success is defined as improvement from time to time, achieving better and greater than previous records. Everyone has their own goals, I have mine too. I can't understand theirs and they can't understand mine. Just let it be.

What I hope for now is a better life with a well-known education qualifiaction. 1st class for my degree is in no doubt. All may seem bleak now, but if I persevere enough, I will eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm looking for the day when I put on graduate gawn to receive that highly recognised certificate under the witness of my parents. I even dream of having a chance to stand in front of so many to thank them in advance. Since they have been working hard throughout life, just to get me the best education  and let me becoming 'somebody' one day, they deserve it!

My life, GAMBATEH!!!



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