All this while, I experienced a lot of things especially the unexpected ones. Fated.
Now, I'm no longer in hometown already. Kota Tinggi, I miss you! Right here, I'm in a kingdom full of tall buildings, branded markets, monetary people etc -- the Lion City, Singapore. Well, it sounds abit of regretting to come here all the ways. Actually, not really. It's just the reality that I can do nothing for.
Since after realising my country doesn't seem to appreciate my presence, I don't hope anything else from her. It's really weird whereby I was disappointed when she rejected my preferred choices, but at the same time I was delighted when the other one offered me the 1st choice I hope for. In such a circumstances, well, I struggled in and out. Should I stay back to show my loyalty? Should I leave to pursue my dream somewhere else? Finally, I decided to leave. Leaving for a place appreciating my talents. allowing me to fulfill my dreams and proving my strength to the one who rejected me before. Perhaps, the Universe is telling me that it was not good enough and did not match my dream. It is also telling me that it has something BETTER and more worthy of me.
Coming to Lion City, I get to start a whole new life. Of course, life is not gonna be easy from this point on, but you will be surprised by the changes it brings upon you. Promises to myself : take up the challenges, overcome the obstacles and be the BEST of myself. Never compare myself with the others. I just have to compete with myself in such a competitive environment. It's only when I can win over myself, I win the others too. To me, the term of success is defined as improvement from time to time, achieving better and greater than previous records. Everyone has their own goals, I have mine too. I can't understand theirs and they can't understand mine. Just let it be.
What I hope for now is a better life with a well-known education qualifiaction. 1st class for my degree is in no doubt. All may seem bleak now, but if I persevere enough, I will eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm looking for the day when I put on graduate gawn to receive that highly recognised certificate under the witness of my parents. I even dream of having a chance to stand in front of so many to thank them in advance. Since they have been working hard throughout life, just to get me the best education and let me becoming 'somebody' one day, they deserve it!
My life, GAMBATEH!!!
